the deserving

How come when certain circumstances come to pass, when the whore who cheats on her man every night and they go on with life and stay together and seem to have and get everything they want.
How come when the man goes out every night and cheats on his wife and they too seem to have a great life.
why? these people that do bad things to each other live happy, now i know not every relationship in these circumstances goes on happy, but a lot of relationships just breeze by and live life like they are looking in the opposite direction the entire time, like they know something is going on, but they dont want to interrupt the great thing they think they have.
they have their relationship and it moves forward and they have money and kids and life is like nothing ever happened if they even know the other person is cheating.

Why do people undeserving of true love always seem to be happy, and i know i say "seems", but they do, they live this great life and have fun and enjoy their pitty, selfindulged, and pathetic life.

I know this is all mixed up, but remember im ranting, stay with me.

Then there are relationships like my wife and I, we dont cheat, lie, or do anything wrong to each other, we simply love each other with everything we have, and life has to reach up and stab a thorn right in our sides. I just dont understand when 2 people have love, hope and trust get shit on. now i will say this, im very thankful, we are not poor and living on the streets, my wife and i love each other very much, and we have something that most people dont, true and endless love for each other. i have found that person that i would truly give my life for. she is my true soulmate and i believe that we were meant for each other. i will stand by my wife through thick and thin and will defend her whether she is right or wrong.

so why is it when 2 people love each other like we do, we have to stand on the street corner begging for a glimpse of sanity and reason, while those undeserving smile and wave while riding the luxury suite on the subway. i dont really think subways have luxury suites, but it sounded good, and besides im just typing whats coming to mind.

i could spend a year apart from my wife, and every feeling that i have now would be the same, every hearbeat would be a thought of her, and i would be living for her.

through ranting on this for now, maybe more will come..