never again

Never again will you hear me say "i wish it was tomorrow", or will i take for granted anything in life ever again.
I have seen my wife for two weeks in the past 6 months and my daughter for 2 days in the past 6 months. I have never missed any woman as much as i do my wife, jennifer, than i have ever in my life, and my daughter has been without her father, both have been detrimental to my physical and mental health.
It drains me everyday when i look at pictures or when i only get to talk on the phone for a few minutes. I will admit i have cried more in the past 6 months than i have in my entire life, and i have prayed a lot, something i havent done since i was 6.
It doesnt matterr what i have to do in life, my wife and daughter come first and foremost before anything or anyone. It hurts so bad to be without, and yes i am so lucky to have both in my life and i know they love me dearly, and our love will never end, but just something for everyone to think about when you bitch about being around your family too much or complain about the wife, or you have to be to manly and cant shop with the wife or kids.
Its not that bad, actually its amazing, because my wife is my bestfriend and i love doing everything with her, every second of the day, i cant take a breath without thinking about my wife and daughter.
So next time you feel to manly, think about and imagine your life for a year and a half without your family.
The reason i say a year and a half is because next month, unless a miracle happens i will deploy to afghanistan.
Make sure you know what youre taking for granted and what youre wishing for before you do it.

Because I cant live without my wife and daughter, and its something that will tear you apart.

Just had to get that out.